• Fertility

    My Fertility Journey

    This last year (exactly 13 months) has been quite a rocky one.  I’ve been pregnant twice and miscarried both babies.  Heartbreaking doesn’t even quite sum it up since there is such intense sadness, anxiety and hopelessness in it all.  If you haven’t read about my previous journey, please see here. Since my last miscarriage in March, I’ve gone to see several different specialists, undergone tons of bloodwork, and received 2 uterus checks.  All of it shows that I’m healthy, but there are some tiiiiiiny things that need to be adjusted so that my body is in the “optimal fertility window”.  *shrug *  It’s all very confusing, so I thought it might…

  • Family,  Fertility,  Kids

    Remembering Loss: Coping with Miscarriage

    if you haven’t read the first article this journey, please click here first before reading below. i’m about 6 months out from my first miscarriage and 2 months removed from my second.  not a day goes by where i don’t think about these babies and wonder what they would look like, be like, feel like in my arms. i have found a lot of solace in speaking to other mamas who have lost babies and listening to podcasts, reading instagram messages, etc.  because i find it SO SO therapeutic, i thought i would share with other mamas who may be going through what i am. Social Media Accounts There are…

  • Family,  Fertility,  Kids

    Pregnancy Loss at 18 Weeks & at 6 weeks

    i’ve thought a lot about whether to share this post.  in the end, I think this time was so hard for me that perhaps if someone else was going through the same tragic loss…they could find some comfort in reading about my journey and my two pregnancy losses this past year. Loss #1 (the abridged version) i conceived in July 2017 and had a normal pregnancy.  i was super sick with nausea (typical) and everything went really smoothly until my 17.5 week appointment.  my blood work up until then had been fine, ultrasounds were good and my first trimester screen went perfectly. at 17.5 weeks (Nov 7, 2017), i went…