my coworker sent me this link recently about the changing climate of students on campus and that really got me thinking… my first reaction was a huge eye roll and lots of agreement over needy students and how parents are calling me and emailing me on behalf of their children (at UCLA). i felt very self righteous as i judged those kids and those parents…but then i realized…i miiiiiiiight be one of them.
- i hover over her when people are around. like i might move around and pretend to be “coo” with you holding C, but i’m super tense inside. there are for sure people i’m super duper comfortable leaving her with, but 99% of the time…all my senses are at attention and i’m secretly hawk-eyeing you as i move around. lol cweeeped yet?
- when she fusses or cries a little and another person is holding her… my emotions sky rocket. i might not run over and grab her away…but i want to. i want to hold her, comfort her and tell her she is the most perfect baby in the world and mama loves her SOOOOoooOOOOO much. (overkill? meybe)
- i have been having such a hard time sleep training her b/c i cannot bear to hear her cry. mike and i have sort of meshed a few sleep training methods together to find something we’re most comfortable with but it KIIIIIILLS me to hear her cry so hard. i feel like she feels abandoned and she’s sad i haven’t come in running. <–this is EXACTLY what most parenting books say is bad but that’s my natural instinct! i never want her to wonder if we’re coming or not. if we’ve left her or not. (i am about to cry now just thinking about it. hoooorrrrmoooones)
- i push C’s motor skill development along as much as possible. for instance: major tummy time, sitting her in a bumbo to learn to sit, then sitting her up to sit her up on her own, standing her up and having her hold onto things, helping her pull herself up, etc. so far C has been doing beautifully and been really receptive to the extra training!
anyway…there are tons more reasons and examples why I’m a cway tiger mom but… what can i say? i love her to death and i want her to be as successful as possible. true there are lots of things that can affect her individuality and personal growth, but that’s where michael blair comes in. he will help reign me back at all those parent-teacher conferences, sporting events where someone bumps/hurts my child, or on the playground when a snotty little kid tries to cut in line or take things away from C while she’s playing with an object, OR to the future bully who tries to hurt C!! pshhh i’m getting upset already just thinking about it. ANYWAYY i’m the biggest contradiction as a parent so far and i know it’ll be a life long battle to not overprotect, over parent, over control or over tiger my babies. ^^