Quiet Mornings

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Random share…
My favorite parts of the day have been in the wee hours of the mornings.  Some days I wake up and bf charlotte before the sun comes up and it feels really good while the house is quiet.  Just the two of us and a snuggly lucy trying to sneak into our embrace.
Afterwards I squeeze in some work before the house wakes and the chaos of the day starts.
I have loved having lucy during the last few months bc she is so loyal, sweet and silly.  She is up when I am no matter the time and will often snuggle next to me as I pump or work or whatevahh (much like this morning).  Although…Other times ms sassy pants looks up, pretends not to notice me and snuggles close to mike (while I have to go outside and pump)…shrug…cant win em all.  Apparently dogs who sleep all day need to sleep all night too.  Lol

Anyway, today is one of those quiet mornings I love so just thought ID share. ūüôā

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Took lucy for a walk at 530am. Sooo quiet outside too. 

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Charlotte’s first selfie.  Hieeee ^^

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Sleep Deprivation

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this shiz is REAL! ¬†the first month my body was running on adreneline and i¬†wasn’t in that much pain from sleep deprivation. ¬†the month after that mike would do the last night shift a few nights a week so that i could sleep early and do the morning shift. ¬†those few extra hours were the equivalent to 3 cups of coffee. ¬†LOL ¬†that’s how starved my body was for sleep. ¬†during the day though, while C slept i¬†got to zone out and scroll through my phone or watch TV. ¬†now that I’m back at work… dude… it’s no joke.

i’m stressed out max over trying to catch up from maternity leave, prepare for all of next academic year and THINK!! ¬†my thoughts are so jumbled sometimes that even my words blur together. ¬†when i’m talking to mike, his mom or my coworkers~~ i look cray trying to put sentences together. ¬†my appearance is also decaying and falling apart. ¬†thank God for tshirts and comfy stretchy jeggings.

i need 12-15 hours of uninterrupted sleep. ¬†why dont’ i just ask mike you ask? ¬†because i have to wake up every 3-4 hours to PUMP!! ¬†wahhhh. ¬†whhyyyyyy. ¬†C sleeps 8 hours a night now and in that time i have to wake up TWICE to pump. ¬†WTH. ¬†even the friggin baby gets to sleep more than me. ¬†sigh.

i¬†want to stop pumping/breastfeeding now but then my pride kicks in and i talk myself into continuing. ¬†my goal was to pump/bf until december and then use the freezer storage until her first birthday in may. ¬†but when mike and i did the math…it didn’t make sense. ¬†#1 i don’t make enough to store that many bags #2 we would need 900 frozen breastmilk bags from january to may. ¬†this girl eats like a beast. ¬†um…so needless to say i cannot stop in december. ¬†*tear *

do other moms go through this dilemma too?? ¬†life sucks b/c i have to pump every 3 hours. ¬†yet… breastmilk is SOOOOO good for the baby AND it’s FREEEEE. ¬†sigh. ¬†for now i’m going to continue this crazy schedule and life. ¬†but it sucks. ¬†BIG TIME. ¬†gone are the days where i can wear a normal bra, sleep on my stomach, sleep 7-8 hours straight, walk around nekked (cuz i leak all the time), and not have sensitive boobs. ¬†tmi?

anyway…besides all my complaining my favorites parts of the day are…

1. watching C sleep, then checking to see if she’s breathing, almost waking her, holding my breath and freezing until she goes back to sleep, then repeating that 10 more times. ¬†lol

2. having C fall asleep on me (like dead sleep)

3. the mornings with C. ¬†she is the happiest and most talkative after 8 hours of sleep. ¬†i love it. ¬†now that i work in the office part of the week i don’t get to have those lovely sessions with her. =( ¬†*tear *

4. watching her develop!  C can now reach out, babbles constantly, and can do a 1/2 roll!

 

sigh…now i have to go pump… laters ya’ll. ¬†happy monday!

 

 

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Life Updates

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I’m SLOWLYYYYYY coming back to blogging folks! ¬†I know I’ve barely updated in the last few months…but ya kno…babies are hard work and time suckers. ¬†lol ¬†SO MUCH has happened in the last 3.5 months that I can barely keep up.

I’ve been literally taking THOUSANDS of pictures of Charlotte. ¬†THOUSANDS. ¬†no exaggerations. ¬†my phone tells me i’m out of storage everyday and everyday i have to move the files over to my external hard drive. ¬†C is doing SO MANY new and cool things i just can’t get over it. ¬†i have to record every second of her life so i don’t forget. ¬†i could watch her all day and still never get bored. ¬†i know ENOUGH ENOUGH Of the baby talk…

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little miss lucy got her very first haircut! ¬†for the last 2 years i’ve been avoiding going to a salon b/c i was worried they wouldn’t be gentle or they would cut lucy. ¬†i’m sure ya’ll already know this but i’m super protective over her and her vet, babysitters, etc. ¬†lucy is so sweet and gentle~~ she can’t handle doggie daycares or rough service. ¬†(either that or her mama can’t!)

anyway…funny story about this haircut…we went to puppy in style on western and olympic. ¬†it came highly recommended from my friends. ¬†lucy was put in a little pen by herself (instead of the pen with the other doggies) and cried these deep gutteral screams. ¬†like someone was torturing her. ¬†i wanted to stay but the groomer kept telling me i could leave and that she wasn’t a real baby. ¬†lol that lucy would be fine. ¬†i walked out to the parking lot and heard her FREAKING OUT so i went back in to see the owner giving lucy treats. ¬†lol ¬†again he asked me to leave and told me lucy was in good hands. ¬†i could hear lucy crying from the parking lot as i was driving away. =( ¬†so sad…

when i came back 2.5 hours later lucy was in great spirits and looked like a lion!! ¬†hehehe super adorbs. ¬†the lady did SUCH a great job on lucy’s haircut we will definitely go back. ¬†they ended up charging us an extra $5 b/c lucy was so difficult. >.< ¬†Sowyy…she is my little princess afterall.

this pic doesn’t do the head justice but she seriously looks like she has a mane. ¬†SUPER CUTE. ¬†people in the neighborhood comment on it all the time. ¬†kekeke

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Redds Apple Beer. ¬†For some reason this was my BIGGEST pregnancy craving. ¬†it looked incredibly refreshing and it was all i wanted. ¬†true i could have had some during my pregnancy but i was already cheating with food so i didn’t want to risk drinking. ¬†this past week i FINALLY bought a 6-pack of these and died. ¬†SOOO YUMMY. ¬†it tastes like apple juice with a little beer mixed in. ¬†sweet and crisp~ just the way i like my alcohol. =D

During pregnancy there were so many times where i craved a certain dish but it never lived up to my imagination. ¬†this time…this beer totally exceeded it. ¬†MUHAHAHA i’m hooked! ¬†you’ll definitely catch me drinking one in the middle of the afternoon now or with dinner. >.O

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after MONTHS of not going to church b/c of pregnancy/birth~ we finally made it out!!  i was waiting until charlotte got her 2 month shots just in case.  you never know what germs people carry~  my mom would have preferred us to wait until she was 100 days to go outside at all but that is a very long time and just cray.  lol

*disclaimer: i know that charlotte has no socks on and her seat belt is crooked. ¬†the weather was ridic this last month in LA (hello 86% humidity) and charlotte HATES being buckled into the carseat. ¬†SOO this was the best i could do before she had a meltdown. ¬†dun worry she isn’t always strapped down like this. *

developmentally~~ charlotte can now smile, see her hands, lift her arms, stick out her tongue, make bubbles with her spit, drool like a champion, and kick like a soccer star.  today she even rolled OVER!!!  it was a half roll but i literally started screaming and taping.  LOL  my little lottie is growing up!

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cute presents from korea!! ¬†thank you eun eemo! ¬†xoxo ¬†these are the absolute cutest organic items for C. ¬†can’t wait to put her in the bear onesie soon! ¬†one thing i love about korean clothes is that the tags are on the outside (on the back of the neck) so that the baby doesn’t have to fuss with it.

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this past week mike and i got a new car!! ¬†one for ME =D ¬†i have never driven a new car before so this was incredibly exciting stuff!! ¬†this was seriously our first big purchase as a married couple. ¬†is that cool or sad? ¬†i’m not sure… but we’re such big grown ups now! ¬†hehe

i am now a 31 year old ahjuma with a baby, body and car to match.  lol  no more fresh faced 20-something lady.  sigh.

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went back to work. =(  i took a 2.5 month maternity leave and totally regretted it.  i wish i had taken 5-6 months off.  the first month was literally about surviving and getting to know this little babe.  the second month i started taking her out on walks and errands.  lol  the second month is where she started to form a schedule, settle into herself and we as a family developed a new rhythm too.  in the 9th and 10th week C was just so much fun.  she started smiling, discovered her own hand, made bubbles with her spit and made so many physical changes as well.  JUST when i was able to do more with the baby was when i had to go back to work. =(

LUCKILY my boss is awesome and i’m able to work 2.5 days in the office and 2.5 days at home until the end of the summer. ¬†that’s like an additional 8 weeks getting to spend time with lottie and my fur babe. ¬†AWESOME RIGHT?! ¬†this is by far the best working mom schedule i could have ever asked for. xoxo

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and now the fun photodump!

c lifts her left arm up a lot and always has her hand in a fist. ¬†it’s the cutest thing ever to see charlotte stare at it and try to move it around. ¬†this is mike “fist bumping” her. ¬†hehe

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the last few weeks the weather was MISERABLE.  charlotte started to get heat rashes in between her folds and on her face. =(  so she is super glossy with aquaphor in these pics. =P  BTW, aquaphor is a miracle worker!

look at her wittle belly.  doh.

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Lucky 31

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on june 28th¬†i turned 31. ¬†what a huge birthday, milestone and just…out of body like feeling. ¬†i cannot believe i am 31 years old. ¬†inside i still feel like i’m in my mid-20s but on the outside…i’m slowly becoming an ahjuma! ¬†sigh. ¬† ¬†well as i get older and wonderful new things happen in my life (like baby blair), i’m incredibly grateful to spend time with these ladies. <3 ¬†this birthday was exactly what i needed! ¬†drinks, brunch and shopping with friends. =D

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Weekend Recap and Photodump

found this in my drafts inbox from June 1st!  eek.

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Wow…seems like it’s been a while since I’ve written one of these! ¬†And you know what?? ¬†It feels AMAZINGGGG. ¬†After ¬†being home for a month straight (minus doctor appointments)~~ it feels so good to start doing normal things and going outside. ¬†Korean postpartum care is super strict and requires 21 days of staying warm, not showering, eating seaweed soup, and a BUNCH of other rules that would shock you if you’re not Asian. ¬†LOL

I couldn’t last the 21 days for most of the postpartum care requirements but I did make it a point not to take C out if possible. ¬†But now that the waiting period is ovahh, Markel and I took this past weekend to go out and get as much sun as possible. ¬†I really needed a break!! ¬†Being around other people, walking lucy, feeling the sun on my face and just doing NORMAL things was exhilarating. ¬†I’m not even an outdoors person, but I REALLY REALLY needed the fresh air.

Below is the most amazing and decadent chocolate cake from Porto that our friends brought over (thanks libby and scott!). I normally don’t like chocolate but after the baby we born I have an insatiable craving for it. Weird right?
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And here is a little photo of baby feet and toes. I can’t get enough of charlotte and I’m so sad she is getting big so fast!! ūüôĀ I wish she would stay the tiny newborn size foreverr. Time is passing so fast! Trying to soak up every second w C while I’m on maternity leave!! Xo
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New Balance Sneakers

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I’m in search for the perfect new balance or nike sneakers. ¬†I want really comfortable shoes to wear out with normal clothes that don’t look “work out”-Y but more chic and sporty. ¬†I am accepting the fact that I will probably not wear heels very much (if at all) in the future, so I might as well stock up on some cute sneakers, flats and flat espadrilles right?! =D ¬†Here are some new balance shoes I’m loving…

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